There comes a time in our lives where we reevaluate certain belief systems. As we grow and learn what once served us may not any more. It's okay for your beliefs to change, When you learn better, you do better. That doesn't mean you were bad because you were most likely served faulty belief systems and you took them on. The important thing is to be open to learning, growth, and expansion so that you don't stay stuck where those that handed you the faulty belief systems want you to stay stuck. The whole point of healing and growth is to become more and more you. We are releasing all of the parts of us that are not us. All of the things we were told we had to be. All of the parts that we had been convinced to suppress. People will ask us to dim our light and make ourselves smaller to make themselves more comfortable (and often to make ourselves more controllable). Healing is about putting all of that down and allowing ourselves to exist authentically.
What is a faulty belief system and where do they come from?
A faulty belief system is beliefs that we have about ourselves and the world around us that stems from thoughts and beliefs that we were taught by, what we call in the world of undue influence recovery, an agent of influence.
An agent of influence can be
- A parent
- A partner
- A spiritual leader
- Family
- Friends
- Media
- A teacher
They can be pretty much anyone that has the ability to influence your thoughts and beliefs in any way. Influence can be used for both healing and harm and it definitely has a spectrum.
Often, if you are on a journey of growth and healing, you will begin to question faulty belief systems, and it can take time to deconstruct and process through them to find what works for you now that you know better. That's okay.
Allow yourself the time and space to process. You can journal, talk to friends, talk to a mental health professional (we are not just here for when things get really bad, we can help with this type of thing, too), do something creative, meditate, exercise, walk outside
Do whatever it may be that you need to do to find your center, again.
Faulty belief systems can look like:
- Feelings of unworthiness
- Negative self-talk
- Guilt
- Shame
- Suffocation from suppressing yourself
- Feelings of perfectionism
- Anxiety
- Depression
- Guilt
- Shame
- Feelings of never being good enough and/or being too much
- Feeling annoying
- Feeling like a burden
- Feeling unlovable, or even feeling unlikable
- Feelings of hate and/or disgust for certain groups of people
- Insecurity
- Rejection
- Fear of abandonment
- Codependence or enmeshment
- Feelings of lack
In truth it can show up in many forms.
I've worked with a lot of clients that are recovering from religious trauma, relationships with narcissists, narcissistic parent(s), recovering from cults, recovering from diet culture, and a number of other highly controlling situations where influence was used to harm. These start with thoughts. These thoughts become beliefs. Once these faulty beliefs are realized, we can work on changing them to thoughts that become beliefs that are more true and authentic to who you are and the you that you want to become (which is just more you).
The whole point of growth and healing is to shed all of the parts of you that aren't you. It may not always be a fun process, but it is always worth it. Free yourself! Be empowered! Be you!